Emil On Story: September 2012

Kamis, 27 September 2012

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I’m scared. I’m jealous.

I’m scared that you think she’s pretty. I’m scared that you will find her more interesting. I’m scared that you will think she’s so much better than me. I’m scared that you might leave me soon. And yeaa, i’m jealous that she gets to see you EVERYDAY, i’m jealous that you talked to her, i’m jealous that you had fun with her, i’m jealous about your past, wondering am i as special as her? Are you happy being together with me as happy as together with her? I’m not comparing, i just scared that i’m not good enough for you..and it’s the worst feeling ever. Maybe you think that i’m overact, but that’s only because you mean a lot to me & i dont want to lose you, dam..

AdamKT

Iloveyou. Simple as that. but iloveyou more than you could ever understand about love. It’s not an ordinary love, i never know how it feels like Julliet loves her Romeo, Barbie loves her Ken, Hawa loves her Adam that much. never know how it feels to love someone like have to cross the ocean or even climb the mountain.. but now i know how it feels, since the 1st time i fall in love with you & when i tell you iloveyou it’s not just a habit or to make a conversation, i say it to remind you that you’re the best thing that ever happened to me. Dont ask me about the reason for me to love you because i dont even know how, when and why. All i know is you make me happy all the time, you make my heart beat faster n slower at the same time whenever i’m around with you. All i want is to be next to you, 24hrs like mcd delivery if possible:p to put my head on your shoulder and staring to your eyes are like magics for me. you're everything i want. You make me feel like i’m the luckiest girl in the world to have you. You never fail to put a smile on my face. I always wake up with a big smile after reading your very simple “goodmorning”. Always hard to fall asleep cause i know the reality is more beautiful than my dream. Always missing you even though it hasn’t been more than a day or since i’ve last seen you.. and it’s all because of you, you succesfully make me fall in love with you, everyday dam..

I can’t promise you anything, but as long as we’re together i’ll try my best to make you happy. To put your needs before my own ‘cause ur happiness is more important than mine. As long as we’re in “US” i’ll always be there for you, no matter how hard the situation is. To make you feel better when you get problems. Maybe not to solve them, but just to make you feel that you’re not alone, you have me to share everythings, to hug you tight, and to be the one who love you the most.

i know things will change. Someday, somehow you’ll wake up and decide that you don’t love me anymore & u’ll suddenly forget about all those sweet words, those “iloveyou” every nights&mornings, those good times we’ve shared. Don’t ever tell me you won’t because i know you will. Just like that. and i'll never be ready for that day. But thankyou for being my exception. Exception of not believe in love anymore, exception of all the guys are the same. Maybe not forever, maybe just for a while. Cause unfortunetaly there’s no true forever in a relationship. But you know what? I hope you’ll be that exception, too.

There are a billion hopes from me for our relationship.. but most importantly, i hope our relationship won’t end as fast as the way we fall in love each other. Hope we’re still in love everyday & it’s getting bigger every single second. Well, I may not be your first love, first sight, first kiss, first date, first move but i just want to be your last. cause iloveyou 100% no doubt. It’s 100% pure love from my heart + i love everythings about you. Your smile, your smell, your eyes, your cheek, your hair, your half of nyamnyam’s spoon brain wkwk the point is, iloveyou!

Thankyou for making my life brighter, & please..don’t ever be the reason for me to let these tears fall, dam...<3 p="p">

Minggu, 09 September 2012

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HAI!:) kemarin 8 September 2012 tepatnya 11 hari setelah gue ulangtahun..waktu gue ulangtahun banyak banget yg ngasih wishes “semoga dapet pacar” atau “semoga cepet laku” atau “semoga move on.” Udah liat kan postingan yg 1st met sama adam krisna tamarjaya? Wishesnya pada jadi kenyataan tuh, hmm...well lucky i’m in love with my bestfriend’s friend. Agak sedikit ribet yaaa tapi thanks to you banget deeee, nabila nathania.

Is it too early for us to take this relationship? Ah tapi ngga kok ngga salah kali, carlie rae jepsen aja baru ketemu udah ngasih nomor hp terus minta ditelfon..apalagi kita yg udah ketemu 2 kali terus udah sering gombal-gombalan di sms. Ya kan, dam? Hahaha.

Kalo cerita ke sahabat gue yg bernama dito, komentarnya cuma... “jgn cepet-cepet aja mil, lagian emang ga kapok sama anak 54?” hmmm semoga yg ini nggak ya:’) semoga yg ini bisa bikin seneng ga diawal doang tapi terus sampe kapanpun.

Oiya belum diceritain yaaa ketemu yg kedua itu di SMA 54. Dia lagi tanding futsal dan nyuruh gue dateng huuu pengen bgt ditonton. Tapi gue ga blg sama dia kalo gue jadi dtg, gue cuman bilang “gatau bisa atau ngga” terus pas dia kick off barudeeeh gue nongol di pinggir lapangan. Pas dia nge-goalin.....melting bgt liat aksinya duh padahal jg goalnya bukan buat gue huhu wkwk. Sumpah demi segala sumpah yg ada di dunia, gue sampe senyum-senyum sendiri liat dia main futsal emg sih ya football player always the best laaa pokoknya<3 p="p">

Abis dia tanding kita ngobrol-ngobrol di kantin 54 sampe sore, terus main kerumah gue sama tebila&pacarnya + ines. Btw dia kalah:’’) padahal udah keren-keren bikin goal pertama kali:p

Nah...abis ketemu yg ininih kalo smsan udah menjurus-menjurus gitudeh. Yang paling bikin senyum-senyum sampe kebawa-bawa ke kantor senyumnya itu conversation yg hari senin... copy-paste nih ya, dimulai dari dia nanya gue suka angka berapa.

Adam : ;););););););););) kedipin dulu deh biar semangat training hoho.. eh mil, suka angka brp?

Emil : aduh..melting nih di kedipin adam:$:$:$ wkwkwk hmmm 8, kalo looo?

Adam : ah melting boongan buat apa hhhhh.. demi apa 8? Kyknya lo ngikutin terus deh hem

Emil : beneran kok ngga boongan huu:p demi Allah-_- emg lo suka 8 jg?fix lo yg ngikutin.

Adam: boongan mah boongan aja huh.. nggaaaa! Lo yg ngikutin. Knp suka 8?

Emil : terserah deeh giliran lagi beneran malah ga percaya wkwk. Yg pertama sih karna 8 itu agustus yg kedua karna cuman angka 8 yg nyambung terus. Lo yg ngikutin huuu:p

Adam : jadi beneran apa boongan? Hmmm ga pokoknya lo yg ngikutin. Fix.

Emil : maunya beneran atau boongan hayooo wkwk. Emg kalo lo knp coba alesannya? Kalo sama fix bgt lo yg ngikutin

Adam : ya gue mah apa aja mau, kan tergantung lo beneran apa ga nya.. kalo gue gara2 itu no.punggungnya lampard.. kan dari dulu suka bgt sm lampard, maklum lah ponakan;)

Emil : hmm...hehehehehe:$:$:$ oooooooohhhh...WAW!:) tapi tetep ngikutin.

Adam : kenapa lg itu emote? Kok lo ngeselin. Lo yg ngikutin pkoknya!:p

Emil : kenapa kek mau tau aja:p hahaha. Kok jadi gue yg ngeselin & ngikutin. Td kan yg jawab gue duluan huu

Adam : mau tau bgt nih? Wkwkwk lah lah, makanya lo nanya gue lah, biar gue yg jawab duluan. Pokoknya lo yg ngikutin titik!

Emil : kok jadi gue yg ditanya mau tau bgt-_- yaudah gue tanya nih, lo suka makanan apa? Sampe samaan lg awas aja....

Adam : spaghetti. Lo apa?

Emil : gamau jawab. Diblg ngikutin lagi. Males. Hu.

Adam : jadi lo spaghetti jg? Iya? Hhhhhhhh

Emil : Y.:’’’) lo yg ngikutin fix banget.

Adam : kalo minuman jus alpukat? Iya?

Emil : gamau blg iya, tp emg iya......

Adam : ini jodoh kali ya? Wakakakaakak cnd;;)

Emil : aduh ini gombal atau apasih? Wkwkwkwkwk tp amin...ecandaaa:p

Gara-gara itu y gue jadi kyk org gila sana sini senyam senyum terus huff padahal simple bgt gitu-_-

Well, tiap hari we’re gettin closer & closer sampe akhirnya...

Sabtu, 8 September 2012..

Dini hari nya sempet otp untuk yg pertama kalinya sm adam tapi cuman 3menit:’’) mahal bgt emg m3 ke simpati soalnya huhu. Terus jam setengah 6 adam minta dibangunin dan yuhuuunya gue berhasil bangunin dia;)

Jadi hari ini gue emang janjian sama tebil untuk daftar bimbel di GO. Tapi tebilnya baru bisa malem, yaudah jam 7an si tebila ini kerumah gue dgn sangat tumben biasanya dia minta dijemput. Dan lo tau apa??? Dia pake baju yg gue jg punya baju kayak gitu. alhasil dia nyuruh gue pake baju yg kayak gitu juga. Huff mungkin dia ngefansJ ini malam minggu, sama tebila..entah udah yg ke berapa ratus kali gue satnight-an sama dia.

Terus kita cuss ke GO alu-alu dan ternyata tutup. Terus ke GO tenggiri yg masih buka, ga nyangka gitu mbak-mbaknya masih inget gue padahal kan udah 3tahun ga ketemu:’D bahkan guru fisikanya jg masih inget gue trs yaudalaa knp gue jd curhatin yg ini-_-

Abis dari GO tenggiri kita as usual & as always luntang lantung gatau mau kmn. Tebila ngajakin ke DK utan kayu tapi gue blg DK yg deket 53 aja..udah sampe sana dan gadapet tempat:/ terus ke warung pasta, dan rame banget. Gue ngajakin ke DK yg disamping GO tenggiri, tp dia gamau dgn alesan “tempatnya sempit”. Sempet beberapa kali ngajak kerumah gue aja tp gue mager dirumah lg sibuk bikin kue huff ternyata ada sesuatu dibalik dia gamau ditempat yg rame, gamau di DK tenggiri dan ngajakin kerumah gue...

Akhirnya kita jadi makan di DK tenggiri. Lagi asik-asik ngobrol dan merangkai kata-kata untuk tebil, tiba-tiba rija dateng. Ini gue aja shock bgt, yaa ekspresinya tebila juga shock sebenernya, good acting bgt bil! Terus disitu gue udah feeling “jgn2 ada adam” ditambah lagi rija pergi lagi ke warung gitu, tapi pas balik lagi masih sendirian. Key gue pikir feeling gue salah. Lagi asik-asik ngecengin tebil sm rija yg mau anniv 2bln, tiba-tiba........................... ada adam muncul di sebelah kiri gue. Bawa karton yg bertulisan.....

“I LOVE YOU EMILIA would you be mine?”

hahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaahah agila kaget seneng ga nyangka malu semua nya jadi satuuuu. Cuman bisa ketawa-tawa saat itu, sampe didesek sama tebil & rija untuk cepetan jawab tapi gue masih ketawa-tawa. Ngga ngerti ini salting atau gimana tapi yagituuu..gue pura-pura ngga ngerti sampe adam ngomong apa yg ditulis di karton. Aduhhhhhh:$ udah nembak aja mukanya masih innocent wkwk. Terus setelah beberapa menit gue jawab.... “iyaaa” sampe berkali-kali karna menurut tebil & rija gue harus jawab dgn format yg sama kayak adam zz. Tapi maaf yaa aku terlalu maloeee dan ga ngerti lagi harus apa itu bener-bener kaget bgt loh. Yg penting kan, diterima dari hati:)

Terus yaudadeh dia duduk disebelah gue dan gue masih ketawa-tawa aja saking senengnya. Ngga lama si tebil sm rija pulang padahal gue ada projek yg harus dikerjain sm tebil malam itu jg tapi....ngga jadi. Terus masih ga ngerti sampe skrg itu dia udah bikin atau belum. Terus gue sm adam ga lama jg pulang kerumah gue, ngobrol-ngobrol buanyakkkk dan all night long deh sm adam sampe jam 1 dia baru pulang.

So that was our love date, our favorite number, & i tagged that night as one of my fav night!

liat kan? angka 8 ga putus kan? :)

8 September..kayak yg aku bilang dam, suka angka 8 karna angka 8 itu satu-satunya angka yg nyambung terus. Angka yg mau dibikin kayak gimanapun juga ngga putus. Semoga kita bisa kayak angka 8 yg ngga putus-putus ya dam..

Thankyou & i love you, adam levine krisna tamarjaya..

my birthday

Sabtu, 01 September 2012..

Let’s celebrate my 17th!! Yippie malam itu emil jadi ratu sejagad semalam gitudee. Malam itu pula jadi dinner dari segala dinner. Menu nya banyak banget, spaghetti – chicken steak – bitter ballon – almond puding – fruit punch – martabak – corn soup – dan gatau lagi karna gue sendiri juga ngga makan gara-gara diajakin foto terus, tq:)

Pagi-pagi gue harus ke sekolah dulu untuk briefing dan bimbingan proposal. Proposal untuk??? Nanti deh beberapa bulan lagi pasti gue akan curhat puyeng nya gue ngerjain proposal buat tiket kelulusan. Abis itu gue langsung pulang sekitar jam 1 itu pergi lagi ke daerah kota untuk nyari kembang api capedeee jauh bgt nyari sampe ke kota sm tante gue-_- padahal gue tau bgt di deket-deket jatinegara juga pasti ada.

Sampe rumah sekitar jam setengah 4 sore langsung mandi dan siap-siap ke salon. Baru ketemu sama yg dandani n gue jam 5 sore, tauga dandan berapa lama? 2 jam lebih 30 menit hhhh padahal acara nya harusnya mulai jam 7 dan bener kan...temen-temen gue dan keluarga gue udah rame udah banyak yg dateng. Gue turun-turun dari mobil....dan semua mata lgsg tertuju pada gue gitu deh duh jd maloeee:$ lgsg lari kedalem karna blm ganti sepatu huhu:/

Terus yaudadeeee here are some pictures that night, thanks for coming guyzzzzz<3 p="p">